June 13, 2012

Our Little Finn

"Rainbow Babies" is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.

This is the common definition I see for "rainbow babies" and thought it was worth sharing again. The safe arrival of Finley and the YEAR we have had with him has not diminished our grief for Cale. It hasn't made us miss him less and it hasn't changed how hard it was to lose Miles' brother Daren. Because those were terrible, tragic things and they have forever changed us. But Finley has forever changed us as well. And he, on his own without strings attached, has been such a true and amazing blessing. Just as the definition above says, he provided hope. Even the idea of him gave us hope. But having him here, getting to snuggle and play with and laugh with this sweet, crazy, silly little boy has been so immensely incredible. Challenging at times, but rewarding every single day. And here we are a full year later. We have a one year old. It sounds so weird. But oh my, has this last year been so very wonderful.

This past weekend we had Finley's birthday party. Seeing that we are so thankful that we get to celebrate this big milestone, it's safe to say I went a little nuts. I wanted a fish theme (only makes sense when your nickname is Finn), and after checking out many crafty blogs and etsy shops, decided that I could make most of the decor and invites myself.  I pretty much dedicated the last month worth of nap times to getting things ready and had a lot of fun doing it all.

Finn did pretty well during the party and I was so thankful for all those who came and helped us celebrate. Thanks to the iPhone, we were able to do FaceTime with some of our family so they could sing Happy Birthday along with us. I think he may have been a little overwhelmed and he was more interested in playing with his cake than eating it and certainly didn't enjoy the bath after when we were cleaning blue frosting out of his ear! And like most one year olds, Finn seemed more interested in the balloons and boxes than the actual gifts he got. He sure is one loved little guy.

And now that the party is over, it's game time in the Hidalgo house. Five days until the movers come to start packing our stuff and only eight days until we move. Yikes!


  1. ummm, can you come and plan my next birthday and then all of my childrens? when i say all it will only be 2! :)
    you did an amazing job!
    Happy Birthday sweet Finn!!

  2. Caroline, It looks like it was an amazing day and we wish that we could have been there. Finn certainly is an amazing rainbow baby and you two deserve all the blessings in the world. Plus, talk about setting the bar high for a first birthday!

  3. WOW! This is incredible! Did you make those cakes? Because they are amazing!!

    What a wonderful birthday party for a wonderful baby.

    Ps. you're hot. ha. :)

    1. Ha! I wish I made them - then I would make them all the time so I could eat them all the time!!

  4. The party you created looks perfect! Seriously, you are very talented. Your family is so cute it just makes me smile.

  5. Oh my goodness, you are a crafty inspiration :)
    Happy Birthday, Finn!
    (good luck with the move...)

  6. What a wonderful celebration for a wonderful little guy! Looks like you've got a party animal on your hands! Hope it was as fun as it looks! Continued prayers for the rest of the gigantic-ness this month...

  7. Wow, this party looks incredible! Great job, mama!

  8. Looks like an adorable party. You have the most darling family, seriously. Celebrating Finn and missing Cale right along with you.

  9. Cutest.party.ever! Those busy nap times for you really paid off! I feel like the first birthday is such a huge accomplishment in need of a big celebration. You did an amazing job. Wish you could have thrown two parties. Love the pics!

  10. I love his party- you did such a great job with everything. And great pics! My favorite is him playing with the ribbon! You look so cute mama :)

  11. What an adorable party!! I can't believe he's one already. Where does the time go? And TWO years of missing Cale and Hayes this summer? That's so hard to think about.

  12. you have a beautiful boy (and that party looks spectacularly decorated!)
    the representation of Cale in the drawing in his story is so sweet. An absolutely gorgeous baby boy.
    Reading your story. Thank you for sharing.

  13. happy very belated birthday sweet finn.

    all the decorations look amazing. you did a great job momma.