When Miles came back home to escort Daren and attend his funeral services, we knew it wouldn't be for very long and he would soon return to Disneyland (as my friend Katie put it). We knew that our time together was essentially borrowed time. But depending on your views, religious or otherwise, our day-to-day lives are really just borrowed time.
It's bittersweet to have been together. We're thankful to have time with each other, but we both would rather that Miles never needed to come home. While he was home, the baby's movements really picked up and became more noticeable. Those moments have been so special to share and have helped get us anxious for his arrival. In fact, lately I'm becoming almost too anxious. I want to enjoy my pregnancy as much as possible, but if I could just fast forward, I would. It's wonderful and terrifying and sometimes just hard to handle. But, as we have certainly learned since last June, we'll get through it, one day at a time, and there's no telling when things can change, so even when it's hard you have to make the most of the borrowed time you have.